Holding on....

Many things happen for a reason, some are good and some are bad.... We don't know for sure the reliability of the reasons but i am sure that this time, it has gone from bad to worst. I am so lost right now, from an issue with love to an issue with my emotions and to the issue of a family crisis, all still on-going in me. I really don't know how long i can hold on in the midst of a thunder storm. I wonder how is it like to seek shelters under bridges, seek warmth from soil and seek water from sea...... I guess the army has taught me well on some survival tips. Waiting for the worst to come, seriously i am perplexed.

If only at any point of the night, i slipped into eternal repose....... i just want to say, be contented with what you already have because somewhere out there or even someone close to you may not have what you possessed. Some couldn't even ask for enough, what's more to asking for more? Most importantly, love your family more than you love anybody else, trust me, when troubles come to you, the first in the front line of the battle is always your family...... Think about it, when you are struggling with certain issues, who do you talk to? Friends are always the one that we seek for advices. This is the reason why we always thought that our family neglect us, it's simply because we fail to communicate our feelings to them. Reason being we can't seems to tell them our problems. Some kind of a barrier? I don't know.

When you find someone you love and who loves you, never let lose the opportunity, because you will never know when will be the next genuine love coming along........ For those who are still in school, study hard and draw inspirations from anything you feel a connection with, it could be a person or a dream. Motivate yourself and psych yourself up for the coming future and BELIEVE in yourself that you CAN do it. It's whether you WANT it or you don't.

For those who are in the working society, knowing that different job scope demands different responsibilities from us so never compare. Work not for the sake of money, but work for the sake of interest and your personal well being. You will be happier this way.

For those who are struggling with life in general, always remember you are not alone. We all know that a storm will never last forever but we aren't sure when it will subside either. Some times we wonder why must it happen to me, why not others? This is probably the fate and destiny of our life, i don't know. But we should be positive, through these hurdles and harsh conditions we are being put in, if we survive it, we will become a better and a stronger person. We WILL survive all that comes head on with us and things that does not kill you, makes you stronger.......

My advices do not work on me, sad to say but yeah somehow it doesn't have an effect on me. I do try to incorporate my own advices only if i think i am falling apart.

I am so very sorry..........my emotions are tearing me apart...........really really painful......

Quote of the night.....

Death is a boundary between 2 lifetime.....