The change...

My last day in Singapore yet again. So much have happened in this 1 month stay, happy ones as well as sad ones, a balance is always a good thing but not always the case.

Doing something that you are willing to do is very different from doing something for the sake of doing it. Doing things unwillingly is as good as not doing it. Why do it when you don't feel like doing it? Is it always true to say that, "friends are there when you needed them the most"? When you needed your friend most, do you approach them or do you wait for them to approach you? Both approaches are completely different.

Approaching your friends for emotional support or any other form of support seems to be the more correct approach and when friends approach you when coincidently, you are experiencing some struggles, are based on luck and coincidence.

If one don't express his or her concern or situations in which they are in, everyone around wouldn't be able to know whether or not you need support in which ever ways that are deemed feasible. We can't expect our friends whom we don't live together under the same roof (maybe some do), to know at which time of the day he/she would feel emotionally lost, even so under the same roof, i doubt we did be able to know that. We are not mind readers.

There are many kinds of problems, some problems can be solved easily and some couldn't. I limit the number of friends whom i tell my problems to is simply because the problem is not easy to solve and only time will tell. Moreover, it involves legal issues which are enforce by the law. All i need is a few listeners, that's all and moreover, it ain't something that i should tell alot of people about.

Things have changed so much and i have noticed the change in me as well, it has been tough but i really do not have a choice..................

Quote of the day....

Your judgement is right simply because you said so, in your own world, you set your own rights and wrongs but in the real world and in the world of others, it may not be the case......... this explains part of our differences......

Half way through time....

Phewww...... my mind is full of stone and total lethargy.... not that i don't wish to do anything but i am just living every seconds on and on.... Been really happy and it seems that afterall, fairytales do exist. Perhaps the past experience and the lonely path walked for a year and a half have somewhat "stalled" (did i spell it correctly?) my thoughts. Trying to get it going again like how it was last time. It is going great and accelerating faster than i thought.

It is inevitable that i did experience some attachment and detachment of my connection with the world of emotions. What could be the factors? Perhaps work commitment in the future, family and of course studies. I am perfectly fine with all these and i know how far i can go as a stead (primary school kids term). Perhaps none except for the ones who knows that distance hahahaha.

There is one extra conclusion that i can make in this return trip to Singapore, there will be another person whom i will miss, written with tears and blood on the list i have in me. Tears of all kinds will fall in this period of time, afterwhich, it will be a list i look through over and over again every night when i sleep alone in Brisbane. When i feel overwhelmed by that loneliness, the amount of stress and the amount of "fake mask" i put up, i will cry and i will "play" every happy moments i have in life with special people and people who really really impacted my life with such force that "imprints" are made........

There are many things in my life have been "furnished" by people all around me, people who knows and people who don't know that they form a part of my life. After so many years, important comments and motivational sentences are still deep rooted in me...... I thank all those people.....

Quote of the night...

There can never be success when one knows nothing about failure.......