When will that be?

Having a cup of Continental Pepper Steak soup, awesome taste! Anway, when was my last post over here? Quite some time ago..... Been really busy with a lot of assignments, assessments and all the loads of research works that i have to do. It has been so exhaustive that i am seriously deprived of sleeps and ironically, i am still awake at this hour hahaha

Been thinking a lot, not about school works but life in general. Love, family, work commitments and friends..... I have been rather "stimulative" recently, little comments have the ability to spark a great deal of thoughts in my mind or even actions. I hasn't been really communicating with my housemates recently due to some actions they did which i consider them as "insensitive beings" and "thoughtless souls"..... i skipped out of the harsh words because i believe i am in no place to tell them off but i hope one day they will learn their lessons. :) Bless them.

Pretty soon, a quarter of the year will pass by or rather, it has already passed. This has been my busiest semester and also my most emotional phase in uni life. Why do i say that? Housemates are not "behaving" themselves which i am really unhappy about considering how much i hate it when someone do something behind another person's back. I leave this to your imagination. School work piling up like some kind of a landfill, just so much to look into and this little time to sort them out. Honestly, i did rather live alone then living with anyone else, that's just me.

How is everything back home? Seems alright to me based on the many enjoyable moments of time captured and uploaded on facebook, i am sure they are enjoying themselves which is what i want to see :) and they are safe and sound, i would die just to keep them that way...... and that's again, just me......

Been feeling rather lonely these few days and the reminiscense of the past "events" have been "haunting" me recently. Notice the inverted comas with haunting, i am not sure if it is bad but i dun think it is good either, i am pretty sure, it has a double consequence to that. Even when reading through the diary i have beside my bed right now, i can still feel how i felt back in the past, here in Brissie, amazing huh hahaha.

I see changes, so much changes that i am scared. Time flies and seems like my very first breathe i took was just a few DAYS ago. hahaha it has been 22 years since then and i felt like i have never grew up at all. Every bits and pieces of heartache i had still remain fresh in my mind and pain to my heart every time i think about them...... I am tired but i can't stop by the road side and take a break...... i want to share my life but it seems like something is telling me, "Ernest, you don't have to :)"......

Been dreaming a lot, weird and exciting dreams. The only time when i am "detached" from reality and letting loose my imaginations for a somewhat true fantasy, is when i dream at night......

I yearn for the voice that would call out to me and say, "Ernest, it's time....."

Quote of the night.......

Never forget who you are before and what you have become......... see the change and see yourself.....