What am i?

These few days had been a rather challenging days for me. Feeling lethargic and at the same time been thinking alot. Family, love, work and friends. All at once and somehow i couldn't segment them appropriately and i am always in a confused state.

I know there isn't anything much that i can do for the case of an imminent family crisis, for the fact that i am here but of course, i still worry for them....

Love has been occupying quite a big space in my mind. I kept thinking who should i choose? Or in the first place, do i even have a choice to make? I try to be nice and with a basic courtesy in mind, people often misunderstands me. This is not because i am interested in you. I am not someone who look at the picture of a person and based on how he/she look like, grew to have interest on that person. My interest on a person doesn't grow based on that person's look. It takes far more than that. But there are some that i am interested in but but but again, it doesn't seem right somehow. Ask me and i really have no clue about it.

Work work work for? Money or interest? For the next 4 years after graduating, i am focusing on money not interest. Shocking? Maybe not. My interests are always on science especially astronomy that i always wanted to get my hands on the proper educations on astronomy. That i will have to wait for quite some time though but it's all worth it.

Friends........ so what exactly friends are for? I always feel that friends are used to be used. I don't maybe that's how it appears to be visually but perhaps the psychological aspects of it are different. Friends are perhaps like seasons. They come and go just like how the 4 seasons will share a quarter of a year of their time. Some friends are friends while some friends are motive driven.... and we still call them friends. What a joke.

There are many things, things as in emotions, going through me every now and then.....i feel really drowned and don't know what exactly is in my mind now. Somehow i can't differentiate the good from the bad. Everything is good at first contact, subsequently we discover more than what that meets the eye and that's how we learn more about the nature or characteristic of that thing. It can be anything.

5 months have passed since the "story" ended. How am i feeling? Frankly speaking, i don't feel sad because it's over. I feel fresh but also at the same time, thinking about what's next on my list of things that i want to do.

Genuine and original species are endangering or perhaps they are already extinct... who will be the one to tell me, " Ernest, let's write this together....." The idea of imagining me picking up the pen and writing yet a new "story" is kinda difficult.... I don't wish to be able to predict the outcome of the chapters, i want to have something out of what i can think of..... something really special and sweet which have already occurred to me over here........ but you know, things doesn't always happen the way u want it to...... but i am contented with what comes my way.... if our path must, will or should cross, i will take the opportunity to start "writing" the pre-love story chapters..... the very beginning......

Quote of the day.....

Pictures are not a measure of someone's beautifulness but a measure of the importance of that memory captured in time...... to be remembered...