Been feeling rather lethargic these days. I kept thinking over and over, what's actually wrong with me? It almost felt like i am not myself anymore......
Working hard on one subject but still not much improvements or perhaps not to what i expected from it. This will be the third attempt and i hope this will at least help me up a little.
Too much have been happening and i am all around the place. 4 more weeks to the final "test" of knowledge and am i ready for it? No i am not.......i hope i will be able to again shine discretely just like how i did for my last semester...... I must prevail....
Someone offered me a weird job, i don't know if that's even a job. USD 100 per client hahaha it doesn't sounds right to call them clients. More like serving as a prostitute. Sorry i can't find a better way to say that. Well i don't know, good money but it's like dumping yourself into a shit hole, after a clean up, a foul smell still lingers.......
Know a new person, i wouldn't say a friend yet. He seems proud about himself and the way he describe things? I was trying really hard to understand what he is trying to bring across to me. I see complacency and over-confidence in him that he is one of a kind but sadly i don't feel so. He displayed an arrogant feel. Same age as me but my advice is, don't overestimate oneself, for when you fall, it will be endless.......
Can't wait to return to hometown for the warmth. Being here is like trying to overcome the affliction of icy tempest. I am exhausted..... so much for this journey and so much i have to pay for it..... not in terms of money.....
Who will i run to?? I run to no one but cuddle to the side of the wall, tearing.... I hope i will be happy one day, genuinely happy... i know the day will come and whatever we want or wish for, we will have to work for it..... that's how things are always like......
Quote of the night....
The cries of the wolf doesn't signify danger but the pain of lonliness.....
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