The exams are around the corner and heaps of assignments to complete. Am i having a great time over here? Seriously, great time is when i am in school listening to specifically interesting microbiology lectures, other then that, there isn't much things to be fascinated about.
One thing for sure, whenever i am in the city, everything around me, i mean EVERYTHING, never fails to make me happy. I must say this, Singapore is small, yet the chance of "viewing" is so much lower as compared to here.
I am trying to love again, but every time i try, i can literally sees the "after effect" of the whole cycle. I believe, having been through 2 relationships, as i move on, it gets harder for me to have it yet again. Nothing to do with characters or any emotional aspects of past "trauma" but it's more of not wanting to see yet the same "phases" occurring again.
25 more days to go.... and i will be back home to see the remains of the battle against human's crisis..... Hope everything is going on well back in Singapore :), would love to enjoy the smell of Singapore again..... cheerz and JIAYOU!!!
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Thursday, October 15, 2009
And again to the past....
Many many many strawberries in a plastic bag, this many cost about 2 AUD!! Just imagine....
Ici bici spider~ haha i have no clue what this breed is, but it appeared out of now where in the living room, freaky isn't. Imagining waking up with a tarantula by your face???
Hmmmm, just as "camwhory" as before, new hairstyle, how's it? hahaha
I am really bored..... another hairstyle?? Perhaps?? haha
And this is!!! The Korean Buffet Restaurant!! Really expensive but well, once in awhile doesn't really burn your pocket. TASTY!!!
Now that the exams are coming, which will also mean that i will be heading back home really soon. Wonder how's everything back home? I am worried sick for my family. I am really sorry that i can't be there physically to protect you all, i promise, i will make up to you......
Day after day, i feel like i am starting to fade away.... with time and my soul seems like it's departing my body....... my heart bleeds every beat....... the pain only grew on me....... Seriously, all these because of what? I have no clue but it seems like it has always been like that.....
During my lecture in the morning, i thought of a title that best describes my current journey in life, " Memoirs of a one winged angel"........ How should i start writing this book?..... Stay tune for the very first chapter..... "The once rising star".....
Quote of the night
The lights in the morning is always the most beautiful because you know u wouldn't be cold again....... The transition boundary between day and night..... the transition of cold to warm..... but somehow, something will always remain the same..... you should figure it out yourself :)
Ici bici spider~ haha i have no clue what this breed is, but it appeared out of now where in the living room, freaky isn't. Imagining waking up with a tarantula by your face???
Hmmmm, just as "camwhory" as before, new hairstyle, how's it? hahaha
I am really bored..... another hairstyle?? Perhaps?? haha
And this is!!! The Korean Buffet Restaurant!! Really expensive but well, once in awhile doesn't really burn your pocket. TASTY!!!
Now that the exams are coming, which will also mean that i will be heading back home really soon. Wonder how's everything back home? I am worried sick for my family. I am really sorry that i can't be there physically to protect you all, i promise, i will make up to you......
Day after day, i feel like i am starting to fade away.... with time and my soul seems like it's departing my body....... my heart bleeds every beat....... the pain only grew on me....... Seriously, all these because of what? I have no clue but it seems like it has always been like that.....
During my lecture in the morning, i thought of a title that best describes my current journey in life, " Memoirs of a one winged angel"........ How should i start writing this book?..... Stay tune for the very first chapter..... "The once rising star".....
Quote of the night
The lights in the morning is always the most beautiful because you know u wouldn't be cold again....... The transition boundary between day and night..... the transition of cold to warm..... but somehow, something will always remain the same..... you should figure it out yourself :)
Thursday, October 8, 2009
The fight...
Been feeling rather lethargic these days. I kept thinking over and over, what's actually wrong with me? It almost felt like i am not myself anymore......
Working hard on one subject but still not much improvements or perhaps not to what i expected from it. This will be the third attempt and i hope this will at least help me up a little.
Too much have been happening and i am all around the place. 4 more weeks to the final "test" of knowledge and am i ready for it? No i am not.......i hope i will be able to again shine discretely just like how i did for my last semester...... I must prevail....
Someone offered me a weird job, i don't know if that's even a job. USD 100 per client hahaha it doesn't sounds right to call them clients. More like serving as a prostitute. Sorry i can't find a better way to say that. Well i don't know, good money but it's like dumping yourself into a shit hole, after a clean up, a foul smell still lingers.......
Know a new person, i wouldn't say a friend yet. He seems proud about himself and the way he describe things? I was trying really hard to understand what he is trying to bring across to me. I see complacency and over-confidence in him that he is one of a kind but sadly i don't feel so. He displayed an arrogant feel. Same age as me but my advice is, don't overestimate oneself, for when you fall, it will be endless.......
Can't wait to return to hometown for the warmth. Being here is like trying to overcome the affliction of icy tempest. I am exhausted..... so much for this journey and so much i have to pay for it..... not in terms of money.....
Who will i run to?? I run to no one but cuddle to the side of the wall, tearing.... I hope i will be happy one day, genuinely happy... i know the day will come and whatever we want or wish for, we will have to work for it..... that's how things are always like......
Quote of the night....
The cries of the wolf doesn't signify danger but the pain of lonliness.....
Working hard on one subject but still not much improvements or perhaps not to what i expected from it. This will be the third attempt and i hope this will at least help me up a little.
Too much have been happening and i am all around the place. 4 more weeks to the final "test" of knowledge and am i ready for it? No i am not.......i hope i will be able to again shine discretely just like how i did for my last semester...... I must prevail....
Someone offered me a weird job, i don't know if that's even a job. USD 100 per client hahaha it doesn't sounds right to call them clients. More like serving as a prostitute. Sorry i can't find a better way to say that. Well i don't know, good money but it's like dumping yourself into a shit hole, after a clean up, a foul smell still lingers.......
Know a new person, i wouldn't say a friend yet. He seems proud about himself and the way he describe things? I was trying really hard to understand what he is trying to bring across to me. I see complacency and over-confidence in him that he is one of a kind but sadly i don't feel so. He displayed an arrogant feel. Same age as me but my advice is, don't overestimate oneself, for when you fall, it will be endless.......
Can't wait to return to hometown for the warmth. Being here is like trying to overcome the affliction of icy tempest. I am exhausted..... so much for this journey and so much i have to pay for it..... not in terms of money.....
Who will i run to?? I run to no one but cuddle to the side of the wall, tearing.... I hope i will be happy one day, genuinely happy... i know the day will come and whatever we want or wish for, we will have to work for it..... that's how things are always like......
Quote of the night....
The cries of the wolf doesn't signify danger but the pain of lonliness.....
Sunday, October 4, 2009
What am i?
These few days had been a rather challenging days for me. Feeling lethargic and at the same time been thinking alot. Family, love, work and friends. All at once and somehow i couldn't segment them appropriately and i am always in a confused state.
I know there isn't anything much that i can do for the case of an imminent family crisis, for the fact that i am here but of course, i still worry for them....
Love has been occupying quite a big space in my mind. I kept thinking who should i choose? Or in the first place, do i even have a choice to make? I try to be nice and with a basic courtesy in mind, people often misunderstands me. This is not because i am interested in you. I am not someone who look at the picture of a person and based on how he/she look like, grew to have interest on that person. My interest on a person doesn't grow based on that person's look. It takes far more than that. But there are some that i am interested in but but but again, it doesn't seem right somehow. Ask me and i really have no clue about it.
Work work work for? Money or interest? For the next 4 years after graduating, i am focusing on money not interest. Shocking? Maybe not. My interests are always on science especially astronomy that i always wanted to get my hands on the proper educations on astronomy. That i will have to wait for quite some time though but it's all worth it.
Friends........ so what exactly friends are for? I always feel that friends are used to be used. I don't maybe that's how it appears to be visually but perhaps the psychological aspects of it are different. Friends are perhaps like seasons. They come and go just like how the 4 seasons will share a quarter of a year of their time. Some friends are friends while some friends are motive driven.... and we still call them friends. What a joke.
There are many things, things as in emotions, going through me every now and then.....i feel really drowned and don't know what exactly is in my mind now. Somehow i can't differentiate the good from the bad. Everything is good at first contact, subsequently we discover more than what that meets the eye and that's how we learn more about the nature or characteristic of that thing. It can be anything.
5 months have passed since the "story" ended. How am i feeling? Frankly speaking, i don't feel sad because it's over. I feel fresh but also at the same time, thinking about what's next on my list of things that i want to do.
Genuine and original species are endangering or perhaps they are already extinct... who will be the one to tell me, " Ernest, let's write this together....." The idea of imagining me picking up the pen and writing yet a new "story" is kinda difficult.... I don't wish to be able to predict the outcome of the chapters, i want to have something out of what i can think of..... something really special and sweet which have already occurred to me over here........ but you know, things doesn't always happen the way u want it to...... but i am contented with what comes my way.... if our path must, will or should cross, i will take the opportunity to start "writing" the pre-love story chapters..... the very beginning......
Quote of the day.....
Pictures are not a measure of someone's beautifulness but a measure of the importance of that memory captured in time...... to be remembered...
I know there isn't anything much that i can do for the case of an imminent family crisis, for the fact that i am here but of course, i still worry for them....
Love has been occupying quite a big space in my mind. I kept thinking who should i choose? Or in the first place, do i even have a choice to make? I try to be nice and with a basic courtesy in mind, people often misunderstands me. This is not because i am interested in you. I am not someone who look at the picture of a person and based on how he/she look like, grew to have interest on that person. My interest on a person doesn't grow based on that person's look. It takes far more than that. But there are some that i am interested in but but but again, it doesn't seem right somehow. Ask me and i really have no clue about it.
Work work work for? Money or interest? For the next 4 years after graduating, i am focusing on money not interest. Shocking? Maybe not. My interests are always on science especially astronomy that i always wanted to get my hands on the proper educations on astronomy. That i will have to wait for quite some time though but it's all worth it.
Friends........ so what exactly friends are for? I always feel that friends are used to be used. I don't maybe that's how it appears to be visually but perhaps the psychological aspects of it are different. Friends are perhaps like seasons. They come and go just like how the 4 seasons will share a quarter of a year of their time. Some friends are friends while some friends are motive driven.... and we still call them friends. What a joke.
There are many things, things as in emotions, going through me every now and then.....i feel really drowned and don't know what exactly is in my mind now. Somehow i can't differentiate the good from the bad. Everything is good at first contact, subsequently we discover more than what that meets the eye and that's how we learn more about the nature or characteristic of that thing. It can be anything.
5 months have passed since the "story" ended. How am i feeling? Frankly speaking, i don't feel sad because it's over. I feel fresh but also at the same time, thinking about what's next on my list of things that i want to do.
Genuine and original species are endangering or perhaps they are already extinct... who will be the one to tell me, " Ernest, let's write this together....." The idea of imagining me picking up the pen and writing yet a new "story" is kinda difficult.... I don't wish to be able to predict the outcome of the chapters, i want to have something out of what i can think of..... something really special and sweet which have already occurred to me over here........ but you know, things doesn't always happen the way u want it to...... but i am contented with what comes my way.... if our path must, will or should cross, i will take the opportunity to start "writing" the pre-love story chapters..... the very beginning......
Quote of the day.....
Pictures are not a measure of someone's beautifulness but a measure of the importance of that memory captured in time...... to be remembered...
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