Have you guys read the news on that 26 million loss in the Casino? It really disappoints me so much that i feel ashame of myself, on humans. How can these people be so unaware that this is really a HUGE sum of money? Does he know how many people he can help with that kind of money? I seriously don't understand why at all. I am really really sad to know that we have humans like that. Utter disappointments.
I am not trying to attract attentions from the government or anyone. But look at this, the casino does help to bring in revenues for the country, we do give credit for that. However, look at what it does to humans? Do you think it is really a good economic booster? Although it is but it is bringing the worst out of many people. Their gambling temptations. You would say to gamble or not is their choice, we can't change them. Having a gambling option, you are opening doors for them. I know how gambling can harm a family, i myself am in it, i have seen it and i have experienced it and it is still haunting me every now and then. If you are trying to help us, please do something about it. Your prosperity is not shared among us all, you have all the luxury but not us all have it. Do spare a thought........
Sigh, why are these people even here in the first place. Really shame on them. I made a small donation of 30 USD to the mercycorp site that's under the arms of World Health Organisation. I can say that i am currently not financially stable enough to help, in light of this casino incident, it makes me angry and it disappoints me. I feel ashamed and i want to help. In future, when i graduated and is working, i will make a monthly contribution to the charity. It may not be much but think about it, how much would it worth to them? ALOT. I am not trying to show how good i am or how mature i am, it has nothing to do with it........ there are so many in the world, if each is willing to come out with a dollar, do you know how much these dollars can help? ALOT.......... sigh
Fighting war, building infrastructures, opening businesses and etc, does the business men make donations to charity? I don't know but i hope they do........ 1/10 of a company's revenue to charity, is it alot? Think about it......... i am really really really disappointed......
Quote of the night.....
If you are not behaving humanely, it speaks well of all of us.......
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Sunday, August 15, 2010
The changing "weather".......
The wind has been really strong lately....... in exchange for a clear night sky, the cold weather is retained every single night..... the stars have been really quiet lately, been talking to them before i turn in but all i hear is my own replies that echoed within.....
It hasn't been really easy to cope with all these emotional disagreements. In the midst of this "battle", i am still doing my assignments and occasionally gets carried away, pretty far away from the ground.....
Maybe afterall, the very first brick is laid wrongly....... i see this gradual change in me ever since i came over and i seems to have become a totally different person already..... my "shell" is still Ernest but my soul has changed........
Maybe my very first intuition i have when i flew over was right, i should have bear that clearly in mind and then think of it when i return.... hahahaha
Am i really special? Weird question to be asking myself or others. I am an EVIL person, i do bad things when no one is watching and i do good things when everyone is around..... i make potions at home that kills and mesmerize people.....
I am EVIL!!
Quote of the night....
There are things that we know and there are things that we don't. So very often that we chose to not know the things that we know, hoping to ease the pain...... this is not going to work..............
It hasn't been really easy to cope with all these emotional disagreements. In the midst of this "battle", i am still doing my assignments and occasionally gets carried away, pretty far away from the ground.....
Maybe afterall, the very first brick is laid wrongly....... i see this gradual change in me ever since i came over and i seems to have become a totally different person already..... my "shell" is still Ernest but my soul has changed........
Maybe my very first intuition i have when i flew over was right, i should have bear that clearly in mind and then think of it when i return.... hahahaha
Am i really special? Weird question to be asking myself or others. I am an EVIL person, i do bad things when no one is watching and i do good things when everyone is around..... i make potions at home that kills and mesmerize people.....
I am EVIL!!
Quote of the night....
There are things that we know and there are things that we don't. So very often that we chose to not know the things that we know, hoping to ease the pain...... this is not going to work..............
Friday, August 6, 2010
Bleeding away.....
I was watching Marley and Me on my lappy a while ago. Have anyone watched it before? I cried, as usual.... full of emotions and sentimental values that came out from the show extending from families to personal well-beings. Apart from being touched by the show, somehow i do feel that i need warmth..... especially at this period of time overseas. But i know there are many things that are not within my power to do so......
Housemates are out again, clubbing and enjoying life, no worries at all. Their worries are about finding a boyfriend or a girlfriend, worrying about their image..... many more that i couldn't comprehend. They are 4 years older than me..... i feel like i am supposed to be their age and they be mine age instead.....
Was feeling down a while ago and sang out loud in the toilet while clearing my bowels, nothing unusual about me, that's what i always do..... hiding in a more confined area tends to limit the amount of thinkings going on in my mind.... i see it that way which might not seems to be logically.....
Seriously, i wonder will i be able to survive through honours year which begins next year....i am not very much affected by the amount of school works i have.... Since secondary school, i always would like to be in a english country and i always like the characteristics of "ang mohs", i always want to learn to speak like them and be able to possess their abilty to socialize at ease..... I being in Australia is really a fulfillment of some of my little wishes. With the natural influences here coupled with my "likings", i find it hard to retain myself......
I am sick over here, down with allergenic asthma, perhaps due to the cold weather as well as the dust in my room. Seems to have a throat infection, maybe some bacteria infection or it could be influenza infection. My flu is killing me, has been on since last week..... everyday since the start of school, i am always awakened 30 minutes or an hour before my alarm sounds off..... i guess something is wrong with and my dreams have been really really weird, seems to be suggesting a certain emotional situation that i am in...... Though highly unlikely, perhaps i will leave a few "words" here just in case if anything should happen to me in my sleeps. As we all know, life by its very own nature is tough, biologically, we have to fight off infections and develop symptoms during the fight. Business-ly, we have work hard to get a job and secure it. Personally, we have to feed our family and take care of one another. Then we have friends and what they truely are for, is still a big question yet to be answered. Accept the fact that friends can be a burden at times, accept the fact that friends can also be the one who destroy your future, accept the fact that friends can be your greatest influence and change you from inside out, accept the fact that not all friends are forever...... We can NEVER understand what's in the minds of others except for our own. Nothing in life comes without a price, apart from those whose parents are well off to be able to provide luxury to their children. What you percieved at first sight, isn't necessary always the true side of a story.....We are all humans, we have our own dark secrets, some obvious and some not so. None of us can safely, without attracting controversy, be able to say, "i am pure and innocent from the day i was born". Be accepting of people's flaw and mistakes, chances are given and as many times as you wished to give... I am happy to be where i am now, who i am, what i am and all that i have, even though it's not much but i can simply say, i am fortunate..... no matter how tough a situation is, there is always a way to solve it..... humans tend to think so far into the future without taking into consideration how flickered minded we are. If you are planning for your future 10 years down the road, you are planning it with a mind of your current age. By the time you hit X+10 years, with that aged mind, it would have changed by then. Alot can happened within that 10 years. People can be so sure that whatever that's pen-ed down in black and white will truely reflects the exact reality.... Don't behave arrogantly because one day you will realise that u are in a 1 man battle against the world..... so much to write and so little time to spill them out......... tired...
Quote of the night.....
It's meaningless to know this feeling without understanding it.......
Housemates are out again, clubbing and enjoying life, no worries at all. Their worries are about finding a boyfriend or a girlfriend, worrying about their image..... many more that i couldn't comprehend. They are 4 years older than me..... i feel like i am supposed to be their age and they be mine age instead.....
Was feeling down a while ago and sang out loud in the toilet while clearing my bowels, nothing unusual about me, that's what i always do..... hiding in a more confined area tends to limit the amount of thinkings going on in my mind.... i see it that way which might not seems to be logically.....
Seriously, i wonder will i be able to survive through honours year which begins next year....i am not very much affected by the amount of school works i have.... Since secondary school, i always would like to be in a english country and i always like the characteristics of "ang mohs", i always want to learn to speak like them and be able to possess their abilty to socialize at ease..... I being in Australia is really a fulfillment of some of my little wishes. With the natural influences here coupled with my "likings", i find it hard to retain myself......
I am sick over here, down with allergenic asthma, perhaps due to the cold weather as well as the dust in my room. Seems to have a throat infection, maybe some bacteria infection or it could be influenza infection. My flu is killing me, has been on since last week..... everyday since the start of school, i am always awakened 30 minutes or an hour before my alarm sounds off..... i guess something is wrong with and my dreams have been really really weird, seems to be suggesting a certain emotional situation that i am in...... Though highly unlikely, perhaps i will leave a few "words" here just in case if anything should happen to me in my sleeps. As we all know, life by its very own nature is tough, biologically, we have to fight off infections and develop symptoms during the fight. Business-ly, we have work hard to get a job and secure it. Personally, we have to feed our family and take care of one another. Then we have friends and what they truely are for, is still a big question yet to be answered. Accept the fact that friends can be a burden at times, accept the fact that friends can also be the one who destroy your future, accept the fact that friends can be your greatest influence and change you from inside out, accept the fact that not all friends are forever...... We can NEVER understand what's in the minds of others except for our own. Nothing in life comes without a price, apart from those whose parents are well off to be able to provide luxury to their children. What you percieved at first sight, isn't necessary always the true side of a story.....We are all humans, we have our own dark secrets, some obvious and some not so. None of us can safely, without attracting controversy, be able to say, "i am pure and innocent from the day i was born". Be accepting of people's flaw and mistakes, chances are given and as many times as you wished to give... I am happy to be where i am now, who i am, what i am and all that i have, even though it's not much but i can simply say, i am fortunate..... no matter how tough a situation is, there is always a way to solve it..... humans tend to think so far into the future without taking into consideration how flickered minded we are. If you are planning for your future 10 years down the road, you are planning it with a mind of your current age. By the time you hit X+10 years, with that aged mind, it would have changed by then. Alot can happened within that 10 years. People can be so sure that whatever that's pen-ed down in black and white will truely reflects the exact reality.... Don't behave arrogantly because one day you will realise that u are in a 1 man battle against the world..... so much to write and so little time to spill them out......... tired...
Quote of the night.....
It's meaningless to know this feeling without understanding it.......
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