This little flame has been burning since.......

This has been one of my well kept secret for 6 years and i will let a bit out to release a lil' tension in me. It has been 6 years ago where this little affections were "formed". And surprisingly, it wasn't through the sight but through the other experience and through observations that this feelings were generated.

It was further reinforced with similar other experience (notice the word "other") that deepens this little conclusion or speculation or rather confirmed conclusion i had. It has been with me since then. This little sweetness, affections, feelings and emotions were kept in a box behind my mind. With so much hope i held but with this little courage to tell of my thoughts...... that lead to me keeping this "entity" for so long.

One after another fails to proceed and lead to the lost of trust in love. With the lost of trust in love comes a long recovery period. With a long recovery period comes a strengthened mentality of "independence". With this strengthened independence comes the lost of touch with love. How do we go about "reconstituting" this broken bridge that has stayed in this grim state for decades? Will time heals the pain or was it just a way of showing concern?

I wished i could go further than just conversing about life in general, but into the possible aspects of OUR life then to our own life. I wished i could have "moved in" a step closer before the others do but that level of courage has always been way below sea level......

I am happy to see your appearance with the help of the technology but it would enhance this further if i see you in person like it has always been for the past 6 years.

I have always feel that it is a mistake for the "birds" to avoid the sun. With such brilliance the sun shines, there were so much that was given to them and yet they failed to see how much contentment they would get if they realise the sun's intentions. I have always been out in the open looking up into the sky and into the sun at a quiet corner of the isle...... but what i really hope is to be able to extent my wings and fly to your direction..............

Quote of the night....

When you lose the chance to say how you feels, it might be interpretated differently when the second opportunity knocks on your door yet again........