It has been awhile isn't it? Clearing almost half of the semester and another half more to go before i complete the academic years for my course of study in UQ. How is everyone so far? Good i believe :). Have been dreaming consecutively since many weeks ago. I can remember many things that i have dreamt about. I have dreamt of my family, my friends, my relatives and the Army...... i have a dream about something happening to me, i don't know what may have happened to me, but it seems pretty real and imminent......
How long will this last? There is this continous thoughts on the same thing over and over again every single night...... every single puff of the cigarettes are countless particles of thoughts...... feeling really confined and really stagnant with life over here... Project mates are not really putting in enough or rather sufficient effort in doing the research, why? But that's fine, i can see where their real focuses in life are...... pretty obvious that studies ain't much of a priority...
Different people, different perspective. Different people percieve the idea of fever differently. We are all different and our similarities ain't described in the form of bar graphs but scattered plots where the slightest difference can still be seen.... we have our own sets of ideas and own sets of philosophies we created for ourselves. We have our own sets of goals that we want to achieve and most importantly, we have our own world that we live in.......
Why do i feel like i am a lion in a circus? Being manipulated, being controlled? But i can fully understand why, because i allowed myself to be........ 自作多情....
Some times, i am really really really tired..... this semester is a special semester for me. I have seen many different kind of characters in Uni, even friends i knew of, their negative selves are coming out as well. But it doesn't matter......
What does having feelings for someone means to you? What does having feelings for someone who doesn't have feelings for you means to you? What does having feelings for someone who already have someone else means to you? what does having feelings for someone who could have feelings for you but is forbiddened to means to you? What does having feelings for someone who also have feelings for you means to you???? Alot of questions and answers are variable.......
Quote of the night.......
The sun is out but why does it feel that the night is never ending in my world.......it is all for that one word..... loneliness....
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
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